I’m feeling very nervous about the state of the world and want to cry most days, but don’t. It’s hard to keep a balance between wanting to live life to the fullest and fearing the earth’s demise. Thank you Thomas L. Friedman, you have done your job.

I think that optimism is winning out so far. I just try to appreciate all of the beauty that we still have. I am just so happy to live in the PNW and can’t imagine that many other places could be as diverse (socially, geologically, etc.) as this place.
This Saturday I went up to Bellingham with the man and it was so beautiful! The day started out as overcast and turned sunny. Sometimes I enjoy the serenity and calm of a cool, clammy, overcast day more than a bright sunny day. It feels like home. We have had lots of those lately and it finally feels like the PNW winters of my childhood minus really great thunderstorms.


I am also feeling like I really want to kick some ass musically and I wish that I had more time to dedicate to making music. I am so happy to have friends that love music as much as I do and I feel like there could be a future in the BFFE super band. If only we could go back to summers between school when we had no jobs and then inject motive and means to create music but then also be cool and older. Wait, let’s all quit our jobs and wander the country with our instruments toed behind our bikes playing on highways and back-roads, in the woods and on the streets. I just need to play without fear of what others think. I am trying to write music and not feel dumb about it but it’s so hard not to.
I was thinking about a recent conversation about loving/hating flying (I was on the hating side of the convo.) and I realized that I feel the same love for riding the bus to work everyday that others feel for flying. There is that same sense of timelessness and unaccountability. “Sorry I am late for work, my bus was delayed.” Everyone is offered the same amenities, people sleep in public and reveal personal things about themselves to strangers. Even though I feel like I don’t enjoy riding the bus most days, I think it is the points of entry and exit that I despise the most. Being on the bus, listening and watching is really pretty relaxing.
There is a new baby in the house, a Gibson pedal steel from the ’50s. The man’s working on fixing it up and so far it sound really great!
I’m keeping my eye out for a used violin in hopes that I can pick it back up.

Here comes my list, 25 things to do before I turn 25:
1. buy a violin and relearn how to play
2. learn and record 5 songs on the drums and sing too.
3. go rock climbing.
4. go snow-shoeing. ( Went to Steven’s Pass Pacific Crest Trail.)
5. eat fresh for a week.
6. climb (part of) Mt. Saint Helens
7. swim in the ocean
8. plant a vegetable garden/clean up the yard. ( I cleaned my yard AND did not plant vegetables, but I have basil in my kitchen…)
9. learn to can/preserve from my grandma.
10. go to Moroccan where I can eat with my hands
11. take a tap dancing class.
12. eat a pomegranate
13. learn to play guitar.
14. learn to play piano.
15. make pho
16. sew a skirt or dress from a pattern. (I made a skirt, but it started to fall apart when I wore it.)
17. create a work of art/paint on canvas. (I’ve been painting a lot! Started out with birds).
18. go camping in/near a national park.
19. make eco-friendly vegetable/fruit bags for me and my friends and host a eco-cleaning recipe party.
20. look for planets through a telescope.
21. participate in a race.
22. organize my music collection.
23. write a letter to President Obama and govt officials in WA state. (I emailed Obama and he/his reps got back to me!)
24. try an ethnic food that I have not had before.(Morroccan)
25. Go on a road trip.